Waiting in Him

This summer I have learned so much. This past Friday was my last day working for SummerWorks. I worked with high school students from Omaha and taught them job skills, how to be a good employee, and hopefully life skills too. I absolutely loved it! Somethings that I knew before this job was that I enjoyed working with high school students. Now, after working with them all summer, I know that I really enjoy working with high school students.

God has also taught me how to trust in His timing. Like I mentioned in my last blog post, China fell through. A blessing in disguise, in that, I asked God for a "red flag" to not go and He gave me the largest "red flag" ever. Now, comes what He has been teaching and continues to teach me. "Trust in My timing, Tabitha. Not yours. Learn to wait patiently in Me." Let me tell you, this is the hardest thing to do. At times, which is about once a week, I just breakdown. "Why Lord?! I do not understand. Why do I feel like I have to live up to what everyone thinks I should do? Why can I not trust You and wait for Your timing? Why is life so difficult and with so many choices? What if I choose the wrong thing?"

The good thing is that I believe God gives us choices. The bad thing...God gives us choices. I want to make a decision right now, at this point in my life, where I will not regret not making a decision. Does this make any sense? Sounds even confusing to me as I read it. Oh well.

Psalm 62:5-8
My soul, wait silently for God alone, 
For my expectation is from Him.  
He only is my rock and my salvation;
HE is my defense;
I shall not be moved. 
 In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength,
And my refuge, is in God.

Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us. 

I thank the Lord that He is my rock, salvation, defense, strength, and refuge. Without knowing Him I truly would be lost and not sure what to do with my life. I know that my life is lived so that I can give all the glory to Him in whatever I do!  

Still my soul be still 

And do not fear 

Though winds of change may rage tomorrow

 God is at your side 

No longer dread 

The fires of unexpected sorrow  

God You are my God 

And I will trust in You and not be shaken 

Lord of peace renew 

A steadfast spirit within me 

To rest in You alone  

Still my soul be still 

Do not be moved 

By lesser lights and fleeting shadows 

Hold onto His ways 

With shield of faith 

Against temptations flaming arrows  

Still my soul be still 

Do not forsake 

The Truth you learned in the beginning 

Wait upon the Lord 

And hope will rise As stars appear when day is dimming  

 

-Still, My Soul Be Still (Keith and Kristyn Getty)