Sometimes, I forget about perspective. I look at what I would really like to do...teach overseas. I forget about the people that the Lord has called me to minister to here at school. I can say that I am by far not perfect and I feel I will always struggle with wondering "Is this where I am supposed to be? Is this what I am supposed to do for the next 30 years?" Yet, in all those incidences where God has placed someone into my path, I know that is why I am meant to be here. No matter how hard it is for me and no matter how many times I can wish myself away to another country, God has put me here for a purpose.
This year has definitely been a learning experience. I have learned so much about teaching, coaching, life, etc. It has been a long-road but one that has been filled with wonderful experiences that I wouldn't trade. I helped coach basketball and also had the opportunity to coach softball. (Not what I wanted to do and was quite adamant that God got that one wrong)* but that goes to show that I know nothing. Out of the softball season came a great relationship with 3 senior girls and 1 junior who I have been able to encourage in Christ and been encouraged in the same manner. Never would I have met them, had it not been for softball. Again, the Lord works in mysterious ways.
*For those of you who know me, I have never played softball, so you understand how much of a challenge this was for me. It just proves that God put me their for each one of those girls.
The best thing that I can talk about from this year is how my relationship with Christ has grown. I have had to learn to be completely dependent on Him. Through all my struggles and doubts, He has been the only one to understand. Thank you Lord for your grace and love!
I listen to Pandora quite often and was doing so as I was cleaning my classroom for the end of school clean-up. This song came on and the words were perfect to describe how I have felt/am feeling about who I am and what the Lord is doing through me.
I heard someone say the other day
They'd seen in me true love displayed
Blessed by something I had done for them
No sooner did they speak those words
I found myself somehow disturbed
Uneasy as I took their compliment
Because I know the heart inside this man
And I know the truth of who I am
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I'll live long enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
If you could walk the hallways of my heart
And see things as they really are
I wonder if you might be surprised
Seeing faded walls of pride and fear
Rooms I've filled with faithless tears
And corners where I've stood in compromise
Oh but you'd see the work his grace has done
And you'd know just how far I've come
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I'll live long enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
And in a thousand years
When the dust of this world clears
And I look back on my life and see in perfect light
Yeah, yeah, the only thing that's good in me is Jesus
The only thing that's good in me is Jesus
I know me well enough to know yeah
The only thing that's good in me is yeah
The only thing that's good in me is yeah
I know me well enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that's good in me is, yeah, is Jesus
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ronnie Freeman- The Only Thing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DZ7YWJvRLw
