My heart is full.
Full of praise- for my One and Only Savior, Jesus Christ;
Full of love- for the lost and hurting, love for my Jesus;
Full of awe and wonder- because of God's indescribable ways.
My heart is full of many things all because of knowing the Lord. God is one who constantly amazes me. His provision in His perfect timing is beyond my feeble mind. Yet, as I often say, why am I surprised? God has promised us that He will supply all our needs according to His purpose.(Philippians 4:19).
It has been a tough year for me. My plans and timing are not God's plan and timing. This year I said that I would go back to Trinidad. Yet, every time that I pursued going, something always came up. My heart was so overwhelmed with sadness that I wouldn't be able to go. Last year I had such a clear calling and everything fell right into place, but this year was different. Was I supposed to go or not? Is that where the Lord wanted me to be?
Five weeks ago on a Sunday, a woman from church invited me to go out to eat with all the "old folks." I said yes, because I have a special place in my heart for older people. I love being able to talk with them and here how God has worked and continues to work in their lives. While out to lunch with them, Ms. Judy asked what I typically do in my summers and what I wanted to do with my life. I immediately start talking about Trinidad. Once finished, she looked straight at me and said, "Why are you not there? What is holding you back?" I felt like God was telling me at the moment "GO! I will provide. Have faith." With money being tight, I still wasn't 100% sure if I should go, but those words kept coming back to me. I knew I had to go. So taking a leap of faith, I told the Lord yes.
I bought my plane ticket a few days later, actually it was on my birthday. Then I left for Trinidad that Saturday. Talk about a short turn around. I wanted to be able to spend as much time as I could there. After buying the ticket, I found some willing people to help look after my house and animals and before I left God provided an extra $500 from a family member and a dear friend. Who was I to worry when God said He would take care of it! Like I said at the beginning of this post, my heart is full. The Lord keeps bringing me back to Trinidad and I know one day it will be permanent. The relationships that I have built and the people I have met along the way are all part of a bigger picture that I cannot wait to see!
Then He said to His disciples,
“Therefore I say to you,
do not worry about your life,
what you will eat; nor about the body, what you will put on.
Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing.
Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap,
which have neither storehouse nor barn;
and God feeds them.
Of how much more value are you than the birds?
And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
If you then are not able to do the least, why are you anxious for the rest?
Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
If then God so clothes the grass, which today is in the field and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith?
“And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink,
nor have an anxious mind.
For all these things the nations of the world seek after,
and your Father knows that you need these things.
But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you.
“Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
Sell what you have and give alms;
provide yourselves money bags which do not grow old,
a treasure in the heavens that does not fail,
where no thief approaches nor moth destroys.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Luke 12:22-34
(Pictures and another blog about Trinidad coming soon!)
